sayonara

I guess I was a little naive to think that this whole blog thing would be "woman to woman", or friend to friend. I always felt like this was my safe space. Since I have only a handful of people that read the blog and they are all completely lovely women it's never really occurred to me that I could somehow be thrown under the bus. On facebook I rarely post anything meaningful. I don't like putting myself out there. I don't trust a whole lot of people. If the girls say something funny I'll share, or if I find a song I really like I'll put it up but thats about it. This was my place where I could share my heart and write about the stuff that mattered. But I should have expected that since it is public, people might talk about it. people might gossip. things might get into the wrong hands, people who don't have my family's best interest in mind. I had hoped certain things I had talked about could be helpful or encouraging to other women because no one talks about it. I still don't feel like women (in some cases men too) should feel ashamed to talk about it. I was honest, I shared my experience and emotions going through it and made sure not to make it a "bash" post. And although I am not one bit ashamed of what I wrote, I need to try to keep things as peaceful as I can because lately things have been the worst they've been in a really long time (so much so that I'm moving out a couple months earlier than planned). I'm hopeful we can work towards 100% civility, the girls are the number one priority. So with that said, previous posts have been reverted to drafts and I will probably no longer be posting here at any point in the future. No matter how much time has passed, I will probably never feel comfortable opening up on here again because I can never be entirely sure if someone is just reading this for the "entertainment" factor or whether they truly care. If you'd like my new blog address feel free to email me, there should be a link in my profile!